I hope you made it alright to my new blog, its really stupid that piczo still hasn't fixed their problems. I've never used blogger so I'm not sure how this is going to work out but for now this is okay.
these photos are pretty overdue now, but here you go!
I'm getting really stressed out about college apps. I'm supposed to know now what I want to do for the rest of my life. i dont know! i want to keep being where i am now forever, i would love to be a junior again and not have to worry about any of this shit. not only am i lazy and just dont want to deal with it, but im afraid and i dont even want to think about it. sure, i've got choices. a lot of people dont have a clue what they want to do, i'm lucky to have three passions.. but how am I supposed to choose one major, decide which one i'm going to run with forever? Acting has been with me the longest, and i feel the most faithful to it because it was my first dream and i've wanted to act since i can remember, but it's also the one that's been the most absent in my life for the past four years. and thats really bad. then there's photography, but honestly it's going to kill me to be stuck on the other side of the lens. my dad suggests it'd be a great way to network, because i'd be taking photos of actresses or people like that, but the chances of something working out like that are slim, as are the chances i'd be taking photos of people like that not only because you have to be really good in the industry but because i dont think i'd even want to go in that direcion? No commercial shit for me, i'm happy taking weird artistic photos. i wont say i'm horrible at taking photos because of the feedback i've gotten but just because i can frame a photo doesn't mean i have complete understanding of a camera, there's still SO much i need to learn and haven't yet. then theres clothing design- the newest passion in my life. and i dont feel comfortable assuming it's going to be something i'll immensely enjoy forever. i just started thinking about that not that long ago, even was taking photos before I was thinking of that. I guess it was around the same time, but i've only just started really learning about it and taking action. I'm really lost with what to do. I signed myself up for an acting lesson with this really amazing coach and that's going down on wednesday.. So maybe if i meet up with him enough and i get confident with my acting again I can feel better about choosing it for a major... It sucks that every job I want is in an industry that is so hard to get into.
in other news, i'm in the process of re-watching all of the harry potter movies. and thats good shit.
also - i used to never get hate on my formspring. i understand haters gonna hate, but please. i'm fine with being nagged to post but dont be rude. and if you're "losing interest in me" is there really a need to tell me?
dear piczo, work properly. thanks