Everytime I post a blog on here i check back on piczo to see if its working, and every time it doesnt. Its a bummer that this blog has 6 followers, (5 on bloglovin) - i'm sure not everyone subscribes who reads- but even then, on piczo I had 2899- thats a HUGE number - besides that, i'd get so many hypes and comments i couldn't respond to every one ... It was fun and it was nice, even though sometimes it got intimidating because i wanted to keep it a secret at school. Is it all coming to an end now or is this a block in the road? I'll keep blogging despite the number of people who follow me, that's not why i started this blog to begin with, it's just confusing how numbers can just drop like that. Does it just seem that way? Who knows! It's not too important. What bums me out is that now when me and devon get NIN3 ( the clothing line ) running I wont have such a huge amount of people to share it with! But dont worry, i'll be sharing nonetheless!
i just signed up for an acting class with walter clark and he's amazing. he found an audition for me but i'm scared. i dont know why... and i mean scared beyond just being nervous. i dont even know what i'm scared of. time, i guess? will i have enough time? or just being able to deliver.. i feel like i could make it through the audition but if i got the part i wouldnt be able to do it right. these are stupid fears but i have them. i need to let go but i dont know how. i should probably just force myself to do it, right? i dont know. my seven year old self would kill me. i've wanted to be an actress my whole life, and had been in plays constantly until freshman year. for some reason i decided i needed a break from acting to conquer my freshman year, and i havent gotten back on board since. 4 years. thats so sad. i guess i really do need to force myself to do this audition. once i get back into preforming the love will flow into my veins. i can still remember how it felt to be on stage- amazing. i just need to find some way to break through my fears. fear is stupid, dont let it get the best of you!